Men Cry Too

I apologise for the lack of posts but mock exams this week and the next so I've been revising *cough* not at all procrastinating *cough* for my exams since the last time I posted.

Since then I have done quite a few things but I'll expand another time as currently my mother keeps glancing at me like "Get off your laptop or there will be severe consequences" so instead I will share with you a mini poem(y) speech I wrote about the whole "Men don't cry" thing.

You're probably thinking: But Minoo, ain't that gonna be long???

Well dear reader, nope. As I'm copying it and pasting it since I've already written it online before (by before I mean like 10 minutes ago so still relatively new) (Not even relatively like literally new new new)

Men Cry Too

If a man hears that his parent(s) has died, do you expect him not to cry?

If a man finds out he has cancer or any other fatal disease, do you expect him not to cry?

If a man finds out his wife, had a miscarriage, do you expect him not to cry?

If a man finds bailiffs taking all his possessions because his job is in tatters and he has no money, do you expect him not to cry?

If a man is raped, do you expect him not to cry?

If a man is bullied to the point of contemplating suicide and self harm do you expect him not cry?

If a man is abused, whether it is emotionally; physically; mentally; domestically; financially; verbally; sexually; whatever the fuckally, do you expect him not to cry?

If a man is told he is an abomination for loving his own gender or both genders or just not being straight, do you expect him not to cry?

And if a man cries, we degrade him, make him feel weak, and tell him he is not manly, we tell him he is feminine.

But crying is not a sign of weakness, it is not a sign of femininity. It is a sign of humanity, compassion, and heartbreak. 

Women cry! Men cry! Women are strong! Men are strong! We are all strong and we all cry.

Crying is a sign that we are living, that we are not dead and our emotions are present.

A man crying does not make him less than human.

You are the ones who are less than human. 

You people with your judging, and snide remarks, and gender stereotypes that make no sense.

 You are like Cybermen, machines, no emotions, nor regret. It’s like your from out of space, aliens that need to be destroyed due to breaking the human race apart.

If men can show happiness, arousal, anger, shock, fear, joy, disgust, pity, envy, pride, patience and every other emotion why can’t they show sadness?

Why must it be locked away? Like crying is a secret, something that must never be revealed. Why must it be something men should be ashamed of?

If a man is human, do you expect him not to cry?

That's all for now, hopefully we'll catch up properly soon.

-Minoo

English Speech

Hey Guys,

So for English I have to make a speech about either something I'm passionate about or something that annoys me. I've decided to do the annoyed one and here's my speech. I'd love to have some feedback. Oh and I'm allowed to have up to 3 pictures to help me with my points. (I only have one at the moment) (I go to an all girls school btw)

Hi, my name is Minoo, and what annoys me is sexism. People think that sexism is a thing in the past, with the whole suffragette movement, getting women the right to vote, the fact that women can work now among other things but sexism is still around. Don't you hear people saying "You fight/kick/throw like a girl" when they're bad at something? Like being a girl means you can't fight/kick/throw? Don't you remember the amount of times we're told that get paid less than men?

Sexism annoys me because when I show you this picture (one above) all of you will pick the one with hairy legs as the man because apparently women can't have hairy legs. However who says that? Society. And really, up until now, who has been the dominant voice when it has come to society? Men. Sexism annoys me because recently in Texas, they tried to make abortion illegal. The people who tried to pass this law were men. Men who will never be pregnant. Men who will never know the feeling of having something inside you that you genuinely don't want. Personally I don't agree with abortions but if a woman decides to terminate her pregnancy I would let her as it's her life, her choice and as long as it doesn't affect me it's none of my business. Sexism annoys me because if a man goes outside topless no one really cares but if a woman goes out in a crop top and shorts she's called a "slut", a "slag", a "whore" or get's wolf whistled at. This has happened so many times that no one even realises how sexist we're being. "Oh that girls skirt is shorter than everyone else's, must be a tart" or "I heard she's had sex with 3 different guys. Such a whore" but if a guy has sex with 3 different girls everyone else is just like "Go on mate, getting all the chicks" Sexism annoys me because most people believe that only a woman can get raped or abused and the men can be the only one who commits it because a woman is a fragile, delicate, gentle creature who is always in distress while the man is the strong, powerful one. Sexism annoys me because even when a man does get raped or abused by a woman he is too scared to speak out because he thinks a woman hurting him is something to be ashamed of, like it takes away his manliness. I remember once when I was in Primary we had a tug of war competition and one girl beat every single boy. Nevertheless most people believe all men are stronger than women. Sexism annoys me because if a girl plays video games people say that she's only playing them to seem more attractive in front of guys, as if a girl can't play something for her own enjoyment. Sexism annoys me because whatever a woman does a man will try and link it to himself as though the world revolves around him. Most of all sexism annoys me because despite the fact the only thing that males have that females don't is a penis* people still think that females are lower than them.


*not sure if allowed to say in actual speech

I need help

These past few days I've been feeling..depressed. But more than that. I feel worthless, lonely, and like no one cares. I feel like no body gives a fuck about me and I'm all alone in the world. And I'm scared. I'm so so scared because a few nights ago I was so close to self harming I..

I'm scared one day this feeling will hurt so much that I will. These thoughts mainly creep in at night, when everyone's asleep and I have no one to talk to which makes it worse because no one can comfort me and tell me they care. A voice in my head keeps telling me no one does and sometimes I don't believe it but sometimes I do.

This feeling started on Wednesday night. I was just thinking about school and I had a realisation that when I think about it I don't actually have many friends in school but I talk to a lot of people. I'm fine with the not having many friends bit but I wanted to know why I talk to a lot of people when we're not friends. That's when it hit me. Most of the time when people talk to me they need help with homework, general advice or I have food.

I feel so used and so hurt. I thought they were my friends but they were using me to get out of trouble and when I need help, when I'm the person who needs the advice. When I need a shoulder to cry on the just carry on with their own lives and act like I'm not there. I had one friend. But she stopped talking to me. We're still friends, kind of, but she said she wanted to be independent or something like that. But ever since she stopped hanging out with me I felt less and less happy.

She understood me. She understood that I found it hard to speak up because she did too. She understood how it felt to be short. She understood how addicted I am to the internet. We were literally like twins. No one else at school understands. I have to spend 30 hours of my life there a week and I can hardly speak.

If I mention Doctor Who, Sherlock, Supernatural or Youtubers people tell me to shut up. And I have nothing else to talk about. They don't tell the girl who's obsessed with one direction to shut up. They don't tell the girl who's obsessed with Lipsy to shut up. They don't tell the girl who's obsessed with Justin Bieber to shut up. But for some reason whenever I want to talk about something I like people tell me to shut up.

So no one will let me fangirl and no one listens to my rants and no one cares. So that's why I started youtube. But instead of people subscribing people keep unsubcribing and I feel so upset because I try so hard to make those videos good, I could have left them all at a crappy quality. Ok I don't have the best editing software and camera but with these resources I try and make the best thing I can and people still don't like it.

I just feel crap at everything. I'm crap at English, I'm crap at Maths, I'm crap at Science, I'm crap at Religious, I'm crap at acting, I'm crap at drawing, I'm crap at writing. I SUCK AT EVERYTHING.

The only things I'm good at are crying, fangirling and hating myself.

Crying and hating myself are both bad so that's not a good thing to be good at and no one wants to hear my fangirling. Plus these won't get me money or a job in the future. I could disappear for a month and still no one will care. I'm no one special. I'm not funny, I'm not pretty. I'm just plain shit.

If anyone does miss me all they'll miss is having that person to copy the maths homework from. They won't care about me. They'll just care about themselves.

But you know the worst thing. If I told anyone they wouldn't believe me. You see this has probably been the lowest I've felt but I have felt really sad before but I've never wanted anyone to find out so I always act so happy. I've act so happy people probably think I never get upset. So I can't even tell anyone, even if I wanted to, because they wouldn't believe me.

I've told one person though. My best friend. She doesn't come to my school though so I only get to talk to her a bit. She's helped so far but she sleeps early at night and that's when the thoughts kick in so she can't help me then. I just don't know what to do.